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Now with our Steppenwolf it was so that in his conscious life he lived now as a wolf, now as a man, as
indeed the case is with all mixed beings. But, when he was a wolf, the man in him lay in ambush, ever on
the watch to interfere and condemn, while at those times that he was a man the wolf did just the same.
For example, if Harry, as man, had a beautiful thought, felt a fine and noble emotion, or performed a
so-called good act, then the wolf bared his teeth at him and laughed and showed him with bitter scorn
how laughable this whole pantomime was in the eyes of a beast, of a wolf who knew well enough in his
heart what suited him, namely, to trot alone over the Steppes and now and then to gorge himself with
blood or to pursue a female wolf. Then, wolfishly seen, all human activities became horribly absurd and
misplaced, stupid and vain. But it was exactly the same when Harry felt and behaved as a wolf and
showed others his teeth and felt hatred and enmity against all human beings and their lying and degenerate
manners and customs. For then the human part of him lay in ambush and watched the wolf, called him
brute and beast, and spoiled and embittered for him all pleasure in his simple and healthy and wild wolf's
being.
Thus it was then with the Steppenwolf, and one may well imagine that Harry did not have an exactly
pleasant and happy life of it. This does not mean, however, that he was unhappy in any extraordinary
degree (although it may have seemed so to himself all the same, inasmuch as every man takes the
sufferings that fall to his share as the greatest). That cannot be said of any man. Even he who has no wolf
in him, may be none the happier for that. And even the unhappiest life has its sunny moments and its little
flowers of happiness between sand and stone. So it was, then, with the Steppenwolf too. It cannot be
denied that he was generally very unhappy; and he could make others unhappy also, that is, when he
loved them or they him. For all who got to love him, saw always only the one side in him. Many loved
him as a refined and clever and interesting man, and were horrified and disappointed when they had
come upon the wolf in him. And they had to because Harry wished, as every sentient being does, to be
loved as a whole and therefore it was just with those whose love he most valued that he could least of all
conceal and belie the wolf. There were those, however, who loved precisely the wolf in him, the free, the
savage, the untamable, the dangerous and strong, and these found it peculiarly disappointing and
deplorable when suddenly the wild and wicked wolf was also a man, and had hankerings after goodness
and refinement, and wanted to hear Mozart, to read poetry and to cherish human ideals. Usually these
were the most disappointed and angry of all; and so it was that the Steppenwolf brought his own dual
and divided nature into the destinies of others besides himself whenever he came into contact with them.

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"Ahora bien, a nuestro lobo estepario ocurría, como a todos los seres mixtos, que, en
cuanto a su sentimiento, vivía naturalmente unas veces como lobo, otras como hombre;
pero que cuando era lobo, el hombre en su interior estaba siempre en acecho,
observando, enjuiciando y criticando, y en las épocas en que era hombre, hacía el lobo
otro tanto. Por ejemplo, cuando Harry en su calidad de hombre tenía un bello
pensamiento, o experimentaba una sensación noble y delicada, o ejecutaba una de las
llamadas buenas acciones, entonces el lobo que llevaba dentro enseñaba los dientes, se
reía y le mostraba con sangriento sarcasmo cuán ridícula le resultaba toda esta
distinguida farsa a un lobo de la estepa, a un lobo que en su corazón tenía perfecta
conciencia de lo que le sentaba bien, que era trotar solitario por las estepas, beber a
ratos sangre o cazar una loba, y desde el punto de vista del lobo toda acción humana
tenía entonces que resultar horriblemente cómica y absurda, estúpida y vana. Pero
exactamente lo mismo ocurría cuando Harry se sentía lobo y obraba como tal, cuando le
enseñaba los dientes a los demás, cuando respiraba odio y enemiga terribles hacia todos
los hombres y sus maneras y costumbres mentidas y desnaturalizadas. Entonces era
cuando se ponía en acecho en él precisamente la parte de hombre que llevaba, lo
llamaba animal y bestia y le echaba a perder y le corrompía toda la satisfacción en su
esencia de lobo, simple, salvaje y llena de salud.
Así estaban las cosas con el lobo estepario, y es fácil imaginarse que Harry no llevaba
precisamente una vida agradable y venturosa. Pero con esto no se quiere decir que
fuera desgraciado en una medida singularísima (aunque a él mismo así le pareciese,
como todo hombre cree que los sufrimientos que le han tocado en suerte son los
mayores del mundo). Esto no debiera decirse de ninguna persona. Quien no lleva dentro
un lobo, no tiene por eso que ser feliz tampoco. Y hasta la vida más desgraciada tiene
también sus horas luminosas y sus pequeñas flores de ventura entre la arena y el
peñascal. Y esto ocurría también al lobo estepario. Por lo general era muy desgraciado,
eso no puede negarse, y también podía hacer desgraciados a otros, especialmente si los
amaba y ellos a él.
Pues todos los que le tomaban cariño, no veían nunca en él más que
uno de los dos lados. Algunos le querían como hombre distinguido, inteligente y original
y se quedaban aterrados y defraudados cuando de pronto descubrían en él al lobo. Y
esto era irremediable, pues Harry quería, como todo individuo, ser amado en su
totalidad y no podía, por lo mismo, principalmente ante aquellos cuyo afecto le
importaba mucho, esconder al lobo y repudiarlo.
Pero también había otros que
precisamente amaban en él al lobo, precisamente a lo espontáneo, salvaje, indómito,
peligroso y violento, y a éstos, a su vez, les producía luego extraordinaria decepción y
pena que de pronto el fiero y perverso lobo fuera además un hombre, tuviera dentro de
sí afanes de bondad y de dulzura y quisiera además escuchar a Mozart, leer versos y
tener ideales de humanidad. Singularmente éstos eran, por lo general, los más
decepcionados e irritados, y de este modo llevaba el lobo estepario su propia duplicidad
y discordia interna también a todas las existencias extrañas con las que se ponía en
contacto."

- H. Hesse
  • Reading: La voluntad de poder - Nietzsche

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"My present life is really very lonely and friendless. It offers me no stimulation that I do not myself provide; but rather estrangement of the soul from itself, preponderance of obsessional influences, which draw the soul up tightly with a sense of fear, and teach it to regard things with an earnestness that they do not deserve. This is the seamy side of my present existence. It is impossible, it seems, to be understood. It happens on rare occasions and I am slowly dealing with that fact. Nothing can outweigh though the pain I so intensely experience of no one being able to feel my words. Philosophical seriousness is already too deeply rooted in me and people can’t see beyond this. I am obliged daily to observe my current condition; my mind is being tormented incessantly, unable to cultivate a means of resistance. Dear friend, the “cultured” world accepts my intellect but I find zero pleasure in anything whatsoever. Life stands still and no matter what I do I am being washed away by everlasting loneliness."
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Caarp Apr 6, 2014  Hobbyist Photographer
Well hello there. What you been up to? :D
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ersatzteilh 2 days ago  Student Photographer
um hyper busy, i am working and studying :) u?
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Caarp 1 day ago  Hobbyist Photographer
I'm on my 2 week break from college now, so just chilling. ^^ Glad to hear you're ok! :D
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Yun-Afezeria Feb 1, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks for the fave! :iconsnugplz:
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ersatzteilh Feb 2, 2014  Student Photographer
Your art is amazing. Im going to watch!!
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